seperti rusa sesat di kl

the move to kl has taken over my life;will update soon!

MY FAREWELL PARTY

they chose steamboat because right now I'm having difficulties in chewing, so steamboat is the best choice for soft food, well, compared to eating soup and porridge! *braces suck when it gets in the way of me and my glorious food cravings*

a few days prior to last night, i went to JJ with Kak Ikin and Awin on a window shopping spree (ceh, window shopping pun nak letak spree kan) and awin was looking for a new watch. KATENYEEE. so she asked me whch one did i like best. and guess what i got last night?

The dusty pink casio i chose. -_-" kene tipu terang2 :)

they were trying so hard in keeping the farewell party as a surprise. i was on the way to the venue of the party with Kak Yan and Kak Miza; when the boss called kak yan.

Boss: Where are you?

KY: We're on our way already (konon nak rahsia taknak bagitau aku venue kat mana)

Boss: owh it's not at Coxn? where is the party at?

KY:New York Hotel boss!

.....

FAKKKKKKK *Dalam hati kak yan kerana dgn senangnya dah kantoikan their surprise plan* 

I started laughing really hard. so did kak miza. hahaha. so much for wanting to blinfold me so i wouldnt find out where we were headed. in the end i pretended to be surprised when we reached the venue *kasi jaga sama muka kak yan supaya takde kene belasah dgn org lain* :P

i loved the fact that they've put in so much effort in organising the party, as well as getting me the gift. :) trully am touched by all this.

siap aisyah si kecik pun ada :D *she was fascinated with my braces. haha

tgk berape banyak kotak depa pakai nak nganjing aku. :P

:)

next up. Singapore trip!! cannot wait :)

p/s: ain't gonna let some anasir emo ruin my farewell party yo.  

MY WEEK IS FULL :)

my days in the office are numbered; and i can sense my colleagues are trying to squeeze as much time as possible with me. :')

we made plans throughout the week; including the weekends, which surely will occupy my mind. the thing is, he's here. in jb. i met him yesterday. and it was so comforting to just be near him. i know i know. I'm trawling on a dangerous territory right now. but yeah, the sense of comfort i once had; well, i miss it. and i just want an ounce of what i had before. just an ounce. not that much. that's all i asked for.

tomorrow is my supposedly "surprise" farewell party. well, because of the obliviousness of some people, they came and asked me upfront about my party, when in actual fact, I'm not even supposed to know there was going to be one! so now the secret is out of the bag, and I'm going to make sure i look my best for tomorrow :)

Saturday will be spent in Singapore :) a total of 12 people altogether; all stuffed in 3 cars, well, not so bad actually because it'd be 4 for each car; and i have no idea what the hell are we going to do there. i cant help but laugh over the fact that it resembles rombongan cik kiah. 12 people weh. how the hell are we supposed to appease 12 people's wants?? kak ikin said we'll just let them all run loose; while we (girls) proceed to our ultimate goal visiting Singapore. SHOPPINNNNGGGGG!!!

Sunday, well, they told me this morning they'd like to go to Kluang Station for breakfast. OH MANNNN... best sial. cannot wait :) just like old times :)

'Tis the season to be "jolly"

yesterday an old friend what's app-ed me after he found out about the break up.

Him: ko macamane ni?ok tak?
me: sakit dowh break. aku tak datang keje satu hari sebab depressed.
Him: e'eleh. baru break up je. relaks la. bende kecik je
me: e'eleh. cube ko break up, tgk sakit tak sakit. Not that aku doakan ko break up la
Him: aku baru je break
Me: *oopss..* : /

after a long awkward silence; we agreed on having a sesi luahan hati later when I'm back in KL so we'd get it out of both of our systems.

mane gua nak tau mamat ni pun baru break sia. i guess its the season kot : /

Things to look forward to

i have much to look forward to. believe me. recovering from a break up is hell-ish. don't believe me? ask my friends. who are constantly barraged with calls, messages, and tweets that is reflective of a person who's about to lock herself up in a tower and never go out again.

i would say the timing of the break up was untimely. when i'm about to leave Puteri Harbour. supposedly, at this moment of time, i should be focusing all my energy on my handing over (done already actually), and spending as much time as possible with my colleagues and enjoying my last moments here. but because of this break up (i really don't want to call this a break up, let's call this "the event"); i just cannot wait to get my ass back in kl, so i will be surrounded by my friends, the malls, and a few other activities that would definitely occupy my mind. say, for instance, be a member of the National Heritage Society. i want to regisiter NOWWWW!!

i really shouldn't moan about this, because life goes on. just that now, sakit sikit la. later on, i am pretty sure i'll be ok. so will he. maybe later in life we can be friends again, that's possible. but now, i just want the pain to stop. and now, in order for me to ease the pain, i'll go on my routine of wikipedia-ing, and tweeting, and just have some fun while i'm here. i won't get to see them when i move back to kl. friends right now, are much more important.

so here's a list to the road of recovery:

1. Go to all places i know i will miss in JB when i move; i.e., pasar karat, roost juice bar, singgah selalu, karaoke (itu mesti okaaayyy), hutan bandar. ape semua tempat makan and shopping ni...
2. Go to Singapore!! cannot wait :B finally after a year of working here, i'd finally have the chance to go to Singapore with my colleagues :)
3. bile pulang ke kl, buat braces belah gigi bawah. the pain will surely make me forget about my other "pain".
4. Start work at the new PLACE! HOMAIGODDDD TAKUT GILER!!!
5. watch Mael's performance at Laundry Bar
6. Go to Khairun's engagement :)
7. SPEND AS MUCH TIME AS POSSIBLE WITH MY GIRLFRIENDS!! (SEE THIS? ITS IN CAPS LOCK AND BOLD FONT BECAUSE THIS IS THE MOST IMPORTANT POINT OF ALL!!!)
8. go back to Kedah with my family for a family kenduri, as well as ammet's wedding. I miss Kedah!!!

see. banyak tu activity. ok la tu. Insya-Allah i'll be ok. :)

the message in the middle of the night.

yesterday night i received a message on facebook from tiana, one of my schoolmates back in high school. which she sent me after reading my post about the break up on my blog.

and it just warmed my heart to receive a message from someone i havent talked to in years, but was concerned about the current state i am now. she wished me the best, and hope i'll recover soon, and looks forward to cheerful posts in the future. thanks tiana :)

your message made me smile in the middle of the night, and i stopped having nightmares (which was now becoming even more frequent) after reading it. again, thanks for your concern. after all. we are all born fighters, tak macho la kalau mengaku kalah macam tu je kan? :)

another hurdle in life that i have to face to find happiness

my tumblr has been my best friend for the past few days. because i was able to blog straight from my BB. whenever i had the urge to call him, or think about those little moments i had; which was just too painful to spit it out, i'd write it on my tumblr. surprisingly it gave me comfort, although just a little bit, but at least there's something there.

during these trying times that you realize who are your bestfriends. and i am very much grateful that all of them are. they've been wonderful in helping me cope with the sudden loss of my relationship. the girls, kuhaz, sue, nina and sarah, seemed to be taking turns "babysitting" me through smses, whats app, and bbm. not to mention numerous calls whenever i had the urge to call him. bobo was there when i cried. amir told me to come back to kl, kak ikin provided me laughter and a brief distraction; awin listened to my woes through coffee session at McD, and khairun and max even called to advise me on how to approach this. they remind me of shrinks. all of them..

i even googled on how to move on after breaking up. the moving on 101 guide has beed quite logical, but some are just so PFFT! like having imaginary boxes to store thoughts about him, ho mannn.. if my head is like the computer i'd gladly do this, but i cannot store my thoughts about him in an imaginary box!

the best part was, this has brought me to closer to my mum. she was so gung-ho about me moving on that i was almost scared she'd kill me if i don't. -_-"

i don't know what will happen in the future. but i am on the road to recovery. though it may be a little bit slow, but i'm getting there.

Grilles on ma' teeth

after a decade of waiting. finally.. i present to you, my new look!im eksaiteddddd

ill be wearing these for a year and a half. sorry for the blurry pic. it was taken using my BB :)

though the process was quite painful, im glad ive finally gotten my teeth done. ive been wanting to wear braces ever since i was a teen. :) that's 10 years ago :) alhamdullillah.

i posted this on my fb and i received numerous enquiries about braces. does it hurt, how much does it cost, where did i get mine done, etc. never knew others were so excited about wearing them as well :)

but right now. this is my 3rd day without chocolate :( im close to dying actually. my gum is still not strong enough to chew, and frankly im bored with the porridge/soup/maggie diet. I WANT REAL FOOD!!

busuk hati

i've got beef with a few people at the moment. sometimes you just cant help but feel pure hatred towards a person. because it is beyond your comprehension why that person can be so mean, and malicious towards someone they call as "friend".

and we're talking about adults who are in the range of 30-45 years old ok. not TEENAGERS.

Might as well take them as teens. since they do not have the logic or common sense like NORMAL adults have.

the "glam" dinner

faliq and i were pretty excited about the dinner. we even went as far as getting a corsages for both of us; to implicate the "PROM" mood :)

my wrist corsage is a PRETTY white rose :)

getting ready at faliq's house saw HUGE intervention by Faliq's mum who almost fainted when she saw what i was going to wear. she even wanted to do my make-up; but then due to time constraints, i did my own make up and the results were BEST la jugak for a beginner like me :)

so this is what i wore for the dinner:

all courtesy of Auntie G :) she even loaned me her pearl bracelet and necklace

all of faliq's friends were dressed to the nines as well. and we were quite excited about the dinner. imagine to our horror when we discovered it was an AMWAY'S ANNUAL DINNER! no wonder our friend was keeping us in the dark about this, i think he was scared we'd find out.

dah name MLM, so it's filled with activities that glorify the founder / sifu of theirs, complete with phrases like luar biasa, lots of speeches that professes gratification towards the founder. *yeah, LUAR BIASA <--- the phrase they kept repeating throughout the event. -____-"

but we didnt let that damper our mood to have fun, so we tried our hardest to enjoy the rest of the night :)

neny (betul kan name ni?), herny and jaja

syah, faliq and i

saje nak tunjuk our corsages. we were the only ones with corsages. malu betullllllll

:)

one of the highlights of the night was the games. this one, we had to pick a guy from our table and dress him up as a girl with whatever materials we have (in which we chose razif), one guy from another table wrapped himself with the sash from the dinner table! in case you're wondering how we fared, we got second :) i was the one that wrapped the hijab for him. HAHA sempat lagi nak mencapapkan diri sebagai contributor

jaja spoiled our pic -_-" she has the tendency to do that when she saw couples taking photos. sazzy was attacked as well. HAHA.

sadly this is the only clear picture i have with faliq (T.T)

all in all, it was quite a memorable night :) in spite of the shocking discovery; it was a night spent with friends and fun :)

WHAT I DID DURING NEW YEAR'S EVE AND THE DAYS AFTER

Pictures can tell a thousand words, nuff said.

on new year's eve, we stumbled upon this:

see this? this is pretty scary. and FREAKING COOL. its a 3-storey high indoor slide and I'd be a fool if i didnt give this thing a try. hoho.so we did :) *btw, they even have an indoor flight simulator :)

TA-DAHH..it cost us RM 12 each -_- *yeah, who would've guessed that you've got to pay to ride on slides. but i tell ya, it'll take a while for you to be able to walk straight right after getting off the slide. sebab die pusing-pusing O.o

our attempt to camwhore afterwards. failed miserably because faliq's face was blocked by me. in case you're wondering where is this awesome place yg ade gelunsur dan simulator?? Empire @ Subang :)

next up. on 1st of January, we attended Faliq's close friend's wedding, and his bride happens to be my friend :) small world indeed :)

ainil and elly. ainil is soooo gorjes that day :) well, she has always been gorjes pun, tapi this time seri pengantin die sgt terserlah :) and i love white weddings, we all came dressed in white. *because we received a message from ainil asking if we'd come wearing white coloured outfits.

ok.everyone except for sidiq dressed in white. -_-" sidiq is the one dressed in black

later that night, we had the much talked about "Glam Dinner". which deserves a post on its own, much to tell.

2nd and 3rd were spent pretty much with the family. i went looking for tigger on the 3rd, but to no avail. almost broke down crying. later that night, kak ina called telling me they've caught her, only to find that it was a wrong cat when i came over. :( anyways, i hope she's safe and loved by anyone who has decided to keep her. she was my parents' favourite.

owh, in case you haven't heard. i'll be doing my braces pretty soon. END OF JANUARY!! that's soon enough!! cannot wait :)

BARU NAK START.TERHEGEH HEGEH

Just created a new account in Tumblr. Hurrah!

i know i know. im slow like that. -_-"

CUTI FREE FREE JE

source:MSN

weh.esok cuti weh.bleh balik KL awal weh. WOOT WOOT!! ni la baru best; apabila team malaysia menang bola, dapat cuti. so harap2 la selalu menang so we can get more holidays :)

New Year 2011 resolutions

Each year i'd have list of new year resolutions only to see that not even half of the items are not achieved. call it lack of self-empowerment to respect the list; but i DO IT ALL THE TIME!

 

so this coming new year, hopefully, will bring a new promise to GET THE LIST DONE!!

 

my 2011 resolutions:

1. SPEND WISELY (need to do this since i am known for my impulse spending streak)
2. START SAVING (no need goals i.e. untuk kawin ke ape yang sewaktu dgnnya, just start saving dammit!) been left with almost nothing by the end of month (THIS HAPPENS EVERYTIME). oooohhh!! i found this website that helps me understand HOW to save wisely, and what i should save up for. Insurance, investment. etc. i even get to download the budget calculator that checks my expenses if i ever do spend on deficit.
3. Sembahyang ni cube jangan TINGGAL. adoi. dah umur 24 tahun pun rongak lagi,memang tak tau malu. subuh and asar is hot on my 'tertinggal' list. zuhur ok sebab baru lepas balik from lunch, maghrib pn ok sbb baru sampai rumah from Office.Isyak paling kacang gajus; itu DONTKNOWWHATTOSAY.
4. place more emphasis on my appearance. i have to admit, being in Puteri Harbour, with it's oh-so-relax-lepak-tepi-yatch environment makes me pay less attention to the clothes i wear to work (come on, sometimes aku pakai skinny jeans je pegi keje) and how i put myself out there. :S
5. Stop being complacent. working in a new environment means there will be no more kakaks looking out for me. (KPI pun depa tolong. manja habissss) MUST BERUSAHA! be an EFFICIENT WORKER!!

itu je la yang larat nak tulis. nanti panjang2 pun, takut tak achieve plak (EH! BUANG PESSIMISTIC THOUGHTS!!)

kenape kene waxxxxx

i dont know who the hell invented wax.BECAUSE IT'S BLOODY PAINFUL!!

now i'd like to see if it will last me up to 4 weeks. /:l

apabila KFC menjadi perbualan.

it's great to know that despite the growing paranoia on Islam; there is also a growing concern in providing Halal food for Muslim consumers in Western Country. Engrossed in the article, i was reminded of my trip to Melbourne last month; which surprisingly i had no trouble at all finding halal food to consume. And the best part was, KFC was halal there, so that was already ok. *shame about people calling Halal KFC chicken as 'terror chicken'; please excuse some people who are just plain ignorant.

is it just me or the whole islamic-phobia is being overplayed by certain people, and sad to say, some are from our muslim counterparts themselves, discouraging us to look past the conceptions of the Western on our religion beliefs. one of the the things i remembered was, "are you going to wear your hijab to Australia? Good luck (Smirking). Because they know you're muslim, there'll be dogs sniffing at your crotch, and them asking you to take off your hijab at the airport to check if you smuggle anything inside". or "better not wear hijab, you know how they're all getting racist, and mean when they see a muslim".

i was so damn scared of coming to OZ that i really do pray I don't have dogs sniffing at my crocth! much worse is if i was walking down the street and face with racial or hate slews (tapi what to do, tiket dah book). such was the misconception i had before coming to Melbourne.

you know the funny part was? I came in and out of the airport breezily. The Customs were VERY polite, smiled and even said good day. Waiter/Waitresses or Counter Ladies would go, "good day love, what can i get you?" with the most disarming smile that puts ALL MALAYSIAN CUSTOMER-BASED SERVICE LINE to shame <---- i should really blog about this, shouldn't i?

and i came back with one of the best experience of my life (having the chance to travel, i LOVE travelling); with NO BAD MEMORIES of racial hatred or ISLAMIC-PHOBIA at ALL.

i know i've come across sites that incite hatred amongsts its member and users on Islam, but generally, we're all alright. we don't have extremists prowling the streets out to stab you just because you wear the hijab, well except for this lunatic which i blogged about last year who stabbed his neighbour.

i guess it boils down on what sort of values you have inside of you. if you believe the goodness of mankind; then hopefully these very same people will not see Islam as a SEPERATE ENTITY altogether, we are all HOMO SAPIENS AITE??

Here, me and Kuhaz were greeted by overzealous austrialians who did not seem to mind the COLD at all. I dont even know why the guy was putting his hand on my shoulder.pfft

GLAMOROUS FABULOUS DAN SEGALA OUS OUS

OHH MAANNNN...

tragedy has struck. if you must knowwww... i am nowhere near glamorous and fabulous. so yeah, now i am faced with a HUGEEEEE DILEMMA. ivegotadinneronfirstofdecemberwithfaliq and the theme is supposed to be GLAMOROUS. well, actually, there's this event Jaja invited us to go to, it's held at Bukit Kiara Equestrian Club and the dress code is "Prom-Like" - i am quoting what jaja has sms-ed me.

I DONT KNOW WHAT TO WEARRRRR. and i dont really like to put it in my head the thought of buying a new outfit for this because it'd be a waste, so just have to settle wearing the exisiting clothes i have. my pick at the moment? my Supre maxi and the beaded bolero i inherited from Ibu. :S nanti tunjuk gambar takut orang sume mencaci, takpe. tunjuk gambar lepas pakai sudahhh

But im a bit excited because this may be the first dinner / prom-like event that faliq and i will attend TOGETHER.

i've hinted at him to get me a corsage. ok. MORE LIKE TOLD HIM TO GET ME A CORSAGE. because you know that GUYS don't really decipher hints that WELL. sape yg setuju angkat kaki!

happy happy :) . promise will take loads of pictures to show my dear friends, esp kuhaz di ostrolia sana, sue di kuantan, nina and radhi di Kuala Lumpur and sesiapa lagi yg sudi baca blog saya ini :)

Salah Clinic

Ima's feet was terribly swollen yesterday so I had to take her to the clinic. after dropping her off, i went to the adjacent sundry shop for some grocery shopping and later went to the clinic we usually go to to wait for her. she was nowhere in sight at the waiting area so i thought she had gone to see the doctor.

and later a middle-aged lady with her daughter left the examination room so i was quite dumbfounded and called ima, "weh, u dah jumpa doctor ke?".

"baru je lepas jumpe doctor, tunggu nak amik ubat ni ha"

"then u kat mane?tak nampak pun!"

"i kat qualitas la, u tunggu kat mane??" Qualitas is the clinic next to the clinic i was at. -_-

"alamak.malu seh tunggu sini" scrambling to take my grocery bag, the umbrells and my handbag.

met ima who was laughing her head off while limping over to my car.

siot punye budak OKU (pun intended) :P

GAMBAR GAMBAR YANG LAMA TAK UPLOAD2 LAGI.APE LA MALASNYE

just noticed I've got 20 followers. yahoo. HAHAHA. thank you for following my daily blabbering.

just to fill in the space. i now find myself absolutely lazy to upload pictures i've taken. i dont know. its not even a hassle. i just am plain lazy i guess. :P so here goes. the overdue photos of faliq's visit last weekend, the chocolate fair, and everything in between :)

loving hotcakes.taken when faliq just got to Johor on Saturday Morning, 18th December 2010.see. even got MCD punye stamp on the butter. aint that cute? :) please excuse my jakun-ness. i get excited each time i eat hotcakes for bfast. WHICH IS EVERY WEEKEND!

  

this is me with bob. at the entrance of the chocolate fair

with the love of my life.not a very good picture of us. :S

a routine when Mr. F is here, STARBUCKS! this was taken after watching Tron. the movie is awesome with the blue lights and all. 0.0

  

happy happy. faliq wearing the battlestar galactica t-shirt i got him from Universal Studios Singapore. thank god he loved the shirt. Come to think of it, I've been buying him clothes each time i travel abroad. :S

taken after lunch, before he leaves for KL :( jaja and hajar just got back from Singapore, and hitched a ride back to KL with Mr. F.

ok. tu je la some glimpses on my life. Till next time adieu!

orang melayu species pelik #1

haha. i like having this sort of entry. it makes me ponder why the hell people cannot see the logic of just behaving normally. i was out having lunch with a few colleagues today at the usual restaurant in anjung. (working here don't really give you much options on places to eat; since its in the MIDDLE OF NOWHERE!). the restaurant is also a common haunt amongst other UEM Land staffs since its accessible, has a clean and nice environment and the choices of lauks are quite OK. altho the drinks sucks. i've resorted to ordering plain water each time i eat here.

a few tables from ours were a group of female staffs from another department of UEM Land. one of them was quite popular for her audacity to lash out at others; especially on the looks department. bottom line, she's just a very bitchy makcik.

she had also previously commented that Kak Z (a clerk at my office) is as big as a P.I.G! i dont know about other cultures around the world, but malays? we do NOT comment on other people in such a rude manner, moreover comparing them to a pig! (Pigs are a HUGE taboo in our society).

so this time, i bet she was just looking out to get Kak Z again, when she was on her way back to the table after washing her hands. she was squeezing in between our table and another table, and it so happens that the side she was squeezing was kak z's side. "Owh, sempit la"; smirking at kak Z. WHAT THE FISH!!!

AND the funny thing was that; she's not so SLIM herself!! (NOT SLIM AT ALL MORE LIKE!) for having the guts to comment on how fat others are, when you're a big size person yourself! that's the irony of this whole thing. and Kak Z being a quiet person just faked a smile before feeling horrible about herself. i commented loudly, not sure if her group heard me "dah tau besar lagi nak lalu sini", in the defense of kak z of course, i am not rude unless i encounter horrible people like this PERSON (or should i say COW?). GOD! how can you be so cruel to someone else who's big in size when you dont even realize you're fat yourself? itu barulah namanya tak tahu nak ukur baju sendiri. or better yet, someone who is just ignorant about basic social ethics.

really do not like the negative vibe flowing out right now, but i cant help feeling pissed. moreover with the fact that this person is in our company. i wonder how did she even managed to get friends. OR ARE THEY AS HORRIBLE AS HER?? i hope not.