the pathetic period

this morning i woke up with swollen eyes.i thought i was bitten by a bug, but actually it was because i was crying over you.i put on my clothes to prepare for class, hoping today you'd call.i hate the fact that im weak when it comes to you, and i kept checking my phone, cursing myself at the same time because i realized im falling to pieces. all because of you.

i am hating you and im hating myself for this. i dont want you. but i crumble without you. i hate you.but i love you.fuck.