i want to be happy

there is no possible way you will be satisfied with life.

right now im in a MAJOR DILEMMA. to leave or not to leave. what is more important? career advancement or having the best life with the ones you love, but with not as much prosepect * i wouldnt call it prospect-less because you have yet to know what the future holds for you*

i came across a blog of this girl saying she's quitting even though she doesnt have a back-up plan because life is too short to be miserable. i find it exhilarating and a bit stupid at the same time; but all in all, i envy her for making such a bold move.

i've missed a lot of get-togethers; my best friends have already left for aussie and i only met them once; i've missed family get-togethers; and i miss having faliq around. please note that this decision i will make is not entirely because of him, i made it because i want to have the most in life, and not waste it by being miserable and having stupid consultants spoiling my day.

i want to be happy. but im scared.