nak spokang tapi tak terer

suddenly i came to a realization that i am becoming more and more 'bodoh english' by the day. words don't come out naturally as it should before, its getting more difficult to remember the correct words and terms associated with anything i had in mind at the moment, and i am not so conversant in english anymore. what the hell happened?

adoi..kalau nak speaking kat sini karang kene sepak ke ape, orang ingat, "eh, bajet habisss", newspaper pun sekarang susah nak dapat. maybe i shud just stick to reading books, but i really dont have any spare cash for books, and they're effing expensive! (eleh, for baju ade la plak spare cash kannn).

rase sedih pulak bile fikir pasal ni :'(

dulu bukan main lagi kutuk orang yg tak reti cakap english.sekarang, HAH! rasekan!