lost and will never be found again

walking away from something you've hold on to for so long is probably the hardest thing you'll ever have to do.

worse..walking away from someone.

what if he is my kismet? what if he is meant for me after all, despite all the crappy things that ensue.

what if i will never find someone like him?

am i putting myself as an easy target by professing my fears and sadness out in the open like this? am i considered as a loser for pining for someone/something that i know will not work out?

what if this is the only chance i get to experience love.