penat

im angry at the moment. and came to the sudden realization that i dont have anyone to gripe about, and finally turn to my blog. this is rather pathetic, but i think that in order for me to keep a sane mind, i need a source to vent out my anger.

i am seriously tired of having to swallow all the bitterness just because im trying to save your back. its tiring having to put up with your volatile emotions when all im doing is to make sure you're on track.

im tired of receiving the blows. im tired of having to put up with all this just because i care.

its not easy to stop caring because i care too much. how can you tell what your heart should do/feel when it has a brain of its own. its like a fucking different entity altogether from your body. and sad to say, it's always doing stupid things we wished it'd stop doing. especially when it comes to love.

i am just tired. period.