what i have to go through

i don`t know why i had to go through this 'ordeal', instead of someone else.why...me...of all the people..have to experience sleepless nights basking in tears because of something that is just messed up.its my fault.your fault.everbody`s fault.yeah..yeah..

i knew i did the right thing..yeah.. i did.so..why..am i hurting inside.i hate you.i hate what you did to me.i hate myself.i hate everything that has to do with this.i hate..i hate..i hate.thats all i can say now.

but i want you to know,i never faked anything.what you saw was the real me.my emotions..my feelings..my expressions..that was all me.although i doubt that you`ll read this.but..tally-ho and all..i`ll say it..i`ll miss you.