Monday, January 30, 2012
Rage sekejap
Betul betul tak faham company yg tk amik berat pasal kelewatan gaji for pekerja.such as when it is festive season ke apa..apa salahnya bagi gaji awal,org nak guna duit tu buat belanja balik kg ke apa.ni tak.nak pikir dia sorg je byk duit,ada ke takde gaji tak kesah.wadehell.
Tuesday, January 03, 2012
My family is my life
Started the new year with a bang.spent the entire 3days holiday with the family and i have never felt better.
I realized how much i have changed over the years.before,i would be out ALL the time.even when i came back for the weekend from Johor,the only time i'd spend with the family was on sunday (the day i'd go back to johor itself) for breakfast and that was it.saturday was spent with friends and boyfriend.So if you calculate the hours i would spend with my family as compared to my friends and boyfriend is shamingly pathetic. #shamefaced to be such an abhorrent daughter that i was.
I seriously had issues with prioritizing.wondered how my parents could still "tahan" with my ineptness and me taking them for granted.but alhamdulillah,i have learned how important ur family is to you.your parents are not getting any younger,and before you know it,the time you have left to spend with them diminishes by the minutes.
I thank god for making me realize this before it's too late.even though im staying on my own now,i make it a point to call my mum everyday,and to make my weekends exclusively for them.even if the day was spent lazing on the couch watching tv;at least you're in the company of the most wonderful people on earth (your family) and the cats.hee hee
Just a quick peek what we had for our new years party,a spongebob-themed party!! Credits to my cousins aida and kak aya for the all the effort.the krabby patties and cupcakes were amazing.topped with family lepak session;we welcomed 2012 with all our hearts :)
I realized how much i have changed over the years.before,i would be out ALL the time.even when i came back for the weekend from Johor,the only time i'd spend with the family was on sunday (the day i'd go back to johor itself) for breakfast and that was it.saturday was spent with friends and boyfriend.So if you calculate the hours i would spend with my family as compared to my friends and boyfriend is shamingly pathetic. #shamefaced to be such an abhorrent daughter that i was.
I seriously had issues with prioritizing.wondered how my parents could still "tahan" with my ineptness and me taking them for granted.but alhamdulillah,i have learned how important ur family is to you.your parents are not getting any younger,and before you know it,the time you have left to spend with them diminishes by the minutes.
I thank god for making me realize this before it's too late.even though im staying on my own now,i make it a point to call my mum everyday,and to make my weekends exclusively for them.even if the day was spent lazing on the couch watching tv;at least you're in the company of the most wonderful people on earth (your family) and the cats.hee hee
Just a quick peek what we had for our new years party,a spongebob-themed party!! Credits to my cousins aida and kak aya for the all the effort.the krabby patties and cupcakes were amazing.topped with family lepak session;we welcomed 2012 with all our hearts :)
You there!don't be stupid!
After 54 years going 55 years of independence,it is disheartening to see a majority of ppl are still ignorant of other races in malaysia. I have just read an article by HRH Sultanah of Johor on wishing our christian friends Merry Christmas (http://rowlandgomes.com/is-it-so-wrong-to-wish-merry-christmas-sultanah-of-johore-shocking-news/)
And it occurs me that malaysia is currently been hijacked by racist bigots that prefers to exaggerate on the small issues ratger than delving into bigger issues.
Yesterday my mum went to ikea and she was queuing up for the toilet with the bidet when a chinese lady asked why isnt she going into other cubicles (sans the bidet),so she replied "we muslims wash with water". And then a malay lady behind my mum enquired rather loudly "eh macamana eh DIORANG (referring to the chinese) basuh". This lady obviously has a foot in mouth disease and has clearly never mingled with other races other than her own.
to be tolerant and sensitive of other people's way of life is something we need to cultivate since young.my aunt is sandwiched by an indian and chinese neighbour for over 30 years and there has never been a time where she regrets staying there.even when everyday during maghrib,we would smell the smell of indian' scented prayer's "asap",we never did complain because respect was prevalent amongst each other.nor when the azan was being called everyday.mind you,the neighbours of multi races have been staying right smack beside tabung haji and has never had any problems with the azan or when it was hajj season.
I recalled once when my class was on a trip to penang,we were cruising down the street in little india and the guide,a nice indian lady asked if we would like to visit the Sri Maha Mariamman temple which was over 80 years old if im not mistaken.my friends and i were ecstatic over such invitation,as we would have the opportunity to learn about other race's religion.but the mood turned sour when HALF of the class decides not to go because of fear of "badi dari kuil" and other notions of stupid superstitious beliefs.their unwillingness to also even be interested in knowing other races in malaysia is also a very sad thing knowing that these are varsity students about to leave thr university as professionals.how do we expect other races to respect us when we dont even WANT to learn about their culture and way of life?
So when someone said it is blasphemous to wish other people merry christmas,i think it's a load of bulls*hit.get out of your tiny mindset and start to make friends of other races.
And it occurs me that malaysia is currently been hijacked by racist bigots that prefers to exaggerate on the small issues ratger than delving into bigger issues.
Yesterday my mum went to ikea and she was queuing up for the toilet with the bidet when a chinese lady asked why isnt she going into other cubicles (sans the bidet),so she replied "we muslims wash with water". And then a malay lady behind my mum enquired rather loudly "eh macamana eh DIORANG (referring to the chinese) basuh". This lady obviously has a foot in mouth disease and has clearly never mingled with other races other than her own.
to be tolerant and sensitive of other people's way of life is something we need to cultivate since young.my aunt is sandwiched by an indian and chinese neighbour for over 30 years and there has never been a time where she regrets staying there.even when everyday during maghrib,we would smell the smell of indian' scented prayer's "asap",we never did complain because respect was prevalent amongst each other.nor when the azan was being called everyday.mind you,the neighbours of multi races have been staying right smack beside tabung haji and has never had any problems with the azan or when it was hajj season.
I recalled once when my class was on a trip to penang,we were cruising down the street in little india and the guide,a nice indian lady asked if we would like to visit the Sri Maha Mariamman temple which was over 80 years old if im not mistaken.my friends and i were ecstatic over such invitation,as we would have the opportunity to learn about other race's religion.but the mood turned sour when HALF of the class decides not to go because of fear of "badi dari kuil" and other notions of stupid superstitious beliefs.their unwillingness to also even be interested in knowing other races in malaysia is also a very sad thing knowing that these are varsity students about to leave thr university as professionals.how do we expect other races to respect us when we dont even WANT to learn about their culture and way of life?
So when someone said it is blasphemous to wish other people merry christmas,i think it's a load of bulls*hit.get out of your tiny mindset and start to make friends of other races.
Friday, December 30, 2011
Alhamdulillah
I find that as i write down my thoughts on my unknown blog,i somehow felt better. I was too consumed with emotion that i failed to realize how lucky ive been.
Alhamdulillah.
Alhamdulillah.
Rock bottom
So it seems that my relationship has once again hit rock bottom.maybe its just me.or maybe we were never good together.
somehow i kept telling myself i should be strong enough to move on when comes a time that the relationship will come to an end,yet i still wake up in the middle of the night hoping he'd texted or called while i was asleep.
How pathetic is that?i hated myself for being so weak.i reminded myself of the our brief seperation,how he seemed so well while i had to take an emergency leave because i cried the whole day,barely eating.
I couldnt help noticing how i am always tge one who victimised my own self,feeling sorry myself and kept on blaming myself for EVERYTHING that has gobe wrong in life,especially when it concerns my lovelife.
I should have some faith.in myself,and most importantly GOD.that He has a plan for me.i may not know what the plan is,but im pretty sure it'll be rewarding for me in the end.as for now,its just a sign for me to toughen up and move on. Not to depend totally on a person who is not even my husband/family. Because theres always that IF.
Nothing in certain in life.until God tells you it is.
somehow i kept telling myself i should be strong enough to move on when comes a time that the relationship will come to an end,yet i still wake up in the middle of the night hoping he'd texted or called while i was asleep.
How pathetic is that?i hated myself for being so weak.i reminded myself of the our brief seperation,how he seemed so well while i had to take an emergency leave because i cried the whole day,barely eating.
I couldnt help noticing how i am always tge one who victimised my own self,feeling sorry myself and kept on blaming myself for EVERYTHING that has gobe wrong in life,especially when it concerns my lovelife.
I should have some faith.in myself,and most importantly GOD.that He has a plan for me.i may not know what the plan is,but im pretty sure it'll be rewarding for me in the end.as for now,its just a sign for me to toughen up and move on. Not to depend totally on a person who is not even my husband/family. Because theres always that IF.
Nothing in certain in life.until God tells you it is.
Thursday, December 29, 2011
Untitled
Hi.im having a flu.and i didnt go to work today because my body just wouldnt allow it.at times like these when i really miss being near my parents and the idea of staying on my own seems like a cold and miserable choice.
Coupled with the fact i just have enough to barely make it till my gaji,i really am miserable.he was supposed to be here,take me to the clinic,because i just cant drive on my own right now.but he's not.and he's giving excuses the same one he always do whenever i asked for something.
I learned a lot within these few days.that the guy you think would always be there for you might not be real,and no one can replace your parents,who wouldnt think twice of dropping everything for you.
Coupled with the fact i just have enough to barely make it till my gaji,i really am miserable.he was supposed to be here,take me to the clinic,because i just cant drive on my own right now.but he's not.and he's giving excuses the same one he always do whenever i asked for something.
I learned a lot within these few days.that the guy you think would always be there for you might not be real,and no one can replace your parents,who wouldnt think twice of dropping everything for you.
Thursday, December 22, 2011
Insya allah they will be okay
My sisters are going to start their scoliosis treatment at a government hospital soon.
I pray to Allah things will work out for the better.insya allah
I pray to Allah things will work out for the better.insya allah
Saturday, December 17, 2011
Bad omen?
Im not a superstitious person.i dont believe that when you dream of snakes,it means someone is going to ask for your hand in marriage.i mean,that sounds like a major bullshit.what does snake have anything to do with being married right?
So it irks me that everytime it's my dental appointment,i have to brace myself for the worse because i ALWAYS get into a whole load of problems on that day itself.
Lemme see..hit a lorry because i wouldnt give way to him (he cut my queue),and today almost hit TWO motorcycles (in seperate occasions) and the latter even had the 'decency' to mock me and swerved right infront of my car as if daring me to hit him.(which i would certainly do just to teach that asshole a lesson).
So it occurs to me that whenever i go for my dental appointment,id run into traffic mishaps.i do not want to think of it like "me going to this dentist is not a good omen" because he's just a DENTIST for crying out loud!
Maybe its a sign that tells me in order for me to get great set of teeth,gotta run into all these shitty drivers because what is beauty without pain right??
So it irks me that everytime it's my dental appointment,i have to brace myself for the worse because i ALWAYS get into a whole load of problems on that day itself.
Lemme see..hit a lorry because i wouldnt give way to him (he cut my queue),and today almost hit TWO motorcycles (in seperate occasions) and the latter even had the 'decency' to mock me and swerved right infront of my car as if daring me to hit him.(which i would certainly do just to teach that asshole a lesson).
So it occurs to me that whenever i go for my dental appointment,id run into traffic mishaps.i do not want to think of it like "me going to this dentist is not a good omen" because he's just a DENTIST for crying out loud!
Maybe its a sign that tells me in order for me to get great set of teeth,gotta run into all these shitty drivers because what is beauty without pain right??
Tuesday, December 13, 2011
Lucky ball no.8
It's so much easier if you're able to predict your future and see who you will spebd the rest of your life with.
Uncertainty is surely a scary thing.especially when you've got too much in stake.
Uncertainty is surely a scary thing.especially when you've got too much in stake.
Getting old and lazyyyy
Ive been going back to bangi every weekend. Now that im staying in subang on my own,i somehow feel obligated to go back every weekend.even when there's nothing much to do at home except for watching the tv and being a completely gross couch potato.
Somehow it feels gratifying.even when we're not doing anything.i am completely blissful being in the company of my parents,sisters and cats.
They make my world go round i guess.and maybe because im getting old.i cant remember the last time i spend ny weekend thronging the mall.
Hmm :/
P/s:this is usually what i do.sleep like mad and have my cats as my pillow or actually its the other way around.im their pillow and they even look annoyed when i shift my body.spoilt brats
Somehow it feels gratifying.even when we're not doing anything.i am completely blissful being in the company of my parents,sisters and cats.
They make my world go round i guess.and maybe because im getting old.i cant remember the last time i spend ny weekend thronging the mall.
Hmm :/
P/s:this is usually what i do.sleep like mad and have my cats as my pillow or actually its the other way around.im their pillow and they even look annoyed when i shift my body.spoilt brats
Wednesday, December 07, 2011
When life gives you lemons..what do you do with it?
I'd make jugs of lemonade and poison myself to death.haha.
Just had my appraisal done yesterday.although it was not excellent with a capital E,but i know it's above average.and right after,our boss (the dato') took us all out for lunch and drinks at the pavillion,where we know joked about how he's in a good mood after the appraisal and maybe after the rest of the office has done theirs,he might want to repeat the same treat :) b
I'm actually happy where i am.surprisingly.ive managed to put aside my grievances on having to work in a small company as compared to my previous companies,and take this as an opportunity to grow and improve myself.its not everyday you get a chance to work closely with the managing director of the company.and it's not everyday that you get a chance to be fully involved with what..5 projects that consists of top consultants in the country (we may be small,but the boss has no qualms on spending on good consultants).
Im not saying im disregarding my past experiences of working with giant companies,they are after all,what has shaped me to become what i am now..at work that is.
And so far,my life seems to jive with what i'm doing and where i am at the moment.after work i'd make plans to hang out with my friends,i get to take the lrt (which means no more driving in kl and get stressed out over stupid drivers) and i get to be close to the ones i love. Like for instance,taking my sisters out for movies,watching sue perform with the impatient sisters,being near my cats,etc
So it dawned on me that as soon as i managed to overlook the fact that my office might not be as swanky as UEM's or OSK's, (although the current office is just behind KLCC), i gained a lot more than i ever had before. I havent even search for other jobs for months! (which is always a good thing)
So here's to life and feeling grateful and contented with what you have :)
Below is a picture of my hangout session watching sue perform last saturday :)
Just had my appraisal done yesterday.although it was not excellent with a capital E,but i know it's above average.and right after,our boss (the dato') took us all out for lunch and drinks at the pavillion,where we know joked about how he's in a good mood after the appraisal and maybe after the rest of the office has done theirs,he might want to repeat the same treat :) b
I'm actually happy where i am.surprisingly.ive managed to put aside my grievances on having to work in a small company as compared to my previous companies,and take this as an opportunity to grow and improve myself.its not everyday you get a chance to work closely with the managing director of the company.and it's not everyday that you get a chance to be fully involved with what..5 projects that consists of top consultants in the country (we may be small,but the boss has no qualms on spending on good consultants).
Im not saying im disregarding my past experiences of working with giant companies,they are after all,what has shaped me to become what i am now..at work that is.
And so far,my life seems to jive with what i'm doing and where i am at the moment.after work i'd make plans to hang out with my friends,i get to take the lrt (which means no more driving in kl and get stressed out over stupid drivers) and i get to be close to the ones i love. Like for instance,taking my sisters out for movies,watching sue perform with the impatient sisters,being near my cats,etc
So it dawned on me that as soon as i managed to overlook the fact that my office might not be as swanky as UEM's or OSK's, (although the current office is just behind KLCC), i gained a lot more than i ever had before. I havent even search for other jobs for months! (which is always a good thing)
So here's to life and feeling grateful and contented with what you have :)
Below is a picture of my hangout session watching sue perform last saturday :)
Thursday, November 17, 2011
kahwin punya pasal
people have been bugging me..asking when the hell am i going to get married.well..if i knew when.i wouldve told you right?i almost snap.because it is a sensitive issue.i dont want to be compelled into getting married just because im at the 'right' age.i know for sure i am not mentally and financially ready to settle down.i dont even know if im with the right guy!heck.i know faliq is amazing.but there are times where u wonder if he is ur jodoh.
sometimes i hope that god would expedite this phase so i wont get harassed by kepochi makciks who's got anything better to do than mind other people's business.but then again..they would prolly continue harassing me when im married by asking when will i get a kid.
there's no pleasing 'em old folks!but for now.i guess one of the reasons i was suddenly eager to get married was because i was envious of my cousin.she had recently got married.and she seemed genuinely happy.and i envy that.hving a new member in the family.etc.sigh.im just a messed up kid who just didnt want to lose out in the race.
but who am i kidding.i dont want to get married for the sake of getting married.i want to be sure i will find the ok giy who will be there through thick and thin no matter what.
i dont have to grow up just yet :)
sometimes i hope that god would expedite this phase so i wont get harassed by kepochi makciks who's got anything better to do than mind other people's business.but then again..they would prolly continue harassing me when im married by asking when will i get a kid.
there's no pleasing 'em old folks!but for now.i guess one of the reasons i was suddenly eager to get married was because i was envious of my cousin.she had recently got married.and she seemed genuinely happy.and i envy that.hving a new member in the family.etc.sigh.im just a messed up kid who just didnt want to lose out in the race.
but who am i kidding.i dont want to get married for the sake of getting married.i want to be sure i will find the ok giy who will be there through thick and thin no matter what.
i dont have to grow up just yet :)
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Thursday, October 27, 2011
of love and life
but have we ever stop and reflect how lucky we are?
even though my family has been hit with the most awful financial breakdown..i realized that our family ties/bond are stronger than ever.
yes.no one is perfect.you still have that annoying,self-righteous,snobby friend.but they're not THAT bad.they are still there when you needed them the most.and will not think twice about gvng u the support u need.
your house is not a huge ass mansion in a sprawling estate.fuck it.u still have a roof above ur head.
u dont have enough money.well...make do with what u have!
u hate ur job?quit!or..look at the bright side of things.what doesnt kill you will only make u stronger.
there.i said it.my life may not be perfect.but i have a lot of things to be grateful about.
p/s:kangoo's kittens are simply adorable.this one is spotty
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Sunday, October 09, 2011
neighbours....
Ive been hving problems with the next door neighbour for years.we dont greet each other let alone talk.they made fun of my sisters (which i thoroughly despise) and litter into my lawn.my parents prefer to keep quiet than confront them over what they call petty matters.
But the one thing that burnede up was their liking for open burning.they've been doing this for years and sometimes burn rubber tyres and plastics!the pungent toxic smell would linger in our house the whole day and i was thinking to myself,what kind of a moron would burn plastic and rubber?well..them obviously.
Today was the day i have had enough because it ruined my weeknd.i told my dad to have a word with them but he said nothing.then i took matters upon my own hands and reported them to the dept of env.though it is still a long way to go from here..they should know that their selfishness will eventually bring them down.padan muka
But the one thing that burnede up was their liking for open burning.they've been doing this for years and sometimes burn rubber tyres and plastics!the pungent toxic smell would linger in our house the whole day and i was thinking to myself,what kind of a moron would burn plastic and rubber?well..them obviously.
Today was the day i have had enough because it ruined my weeknd.i told my dad to have a word with them but he said nothing.then i took matters upon my own hands and reported them to the dept of env.though it is still a long way to go from here..they should know that their selfishness will eventually bring them down.padan muka
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Saturday, October 08, 2011
hello!
Omg..i was so sure i had to cull m blog..but now i can retract my decision now that android has a mobile blogger :)
Yeahh..about using samsung..i lost my bb.i still miss it.but when i saw just how many free apps i could get by using android..hel-lo new phone!
Yeahh..about using samsung..i lost my bb.i still miss it.but when i saw just how many free apps i could get by using android..hel-lo new phone!
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Wednesday, August 24, 2011
When friends convene
Its not so easy to meet up with your friends now that most of them are working. Plans have to be made a week earlier, and theres always an issue of choosing the best place that is most convenient for everyone. But that didn't stop me from seeing great friends over the ramadhan :)
And did i tell you that nina is leaving for san francisco a week after raya? She's taking a business course all the way in the states for one and half year :( i'm going to miss you nina!! But i'm happy that you're pursuing your dreams. And im glad i had the chance to see you for iftar :)
And just yesterday had a really nice iftar with jaja and the rest of the gang.walaupun hanya sekejap :) 
Sunday, August 21, 2011
Ramdhan is the time for family
This ramadhan is probably the last time I get spend with my family,because by next year, they will be in Penang, whilst I will be in KL alone :(
Making the most counts, I'm glad I get the chance to experience ramadhan this year :)
Making the most counts, I'm glad I get the chance to experience ramadhan this year :)
Sunday, August 07, 2011
An advice to future rempits out there
Melayu selalu dikaitkan dgn rempit. Not something we should be proud of. They're becoming a bane to community, and I think it's time we put a stop to this. To salvage whatever Malay identity we have, we do not want to represented by daredevils on a modified motorbikes who find pleasure terrorizing our roads.
I once knew a schoolmate who later became a mat rempit. Right after school he worked odd-jobs just so he can fund his hobby which is to go for illegal racing, and modify his bike. (at least he's doing an honest job instead of snatching people's purses!)
While most of us decide to further our studies to tertiary education, he stayed behind and became an office errand-boy. That was the last I heard of him. I hope he's found a better,more stable job to support him and his fmily, because we have to be realistic here, it's hard enough for someone with a diploma to get a decent job,let alone someone who only has his spm to fall back on. (unless you become a celebrity..then u spm educated oso never mind!haha.pun inteded)
If you notice,most rempits are youths fresh out of school. They think the world is within their grip and motorbike racing is all that.well boy, things won't stay the same 10 years later down the road man. You decide that youve had enough of studying because school sucked and you just think that it'll hinder your passion for rempit-ing. Well boy, later on You'll want to get married, and only then you realize life is not a bunch of roses like you thought it was. You and your wife will want to have kids, and kids are definitely not cheap to raise.
You had all the chances in the world to make your life work, but chose a fool's dream that could only make you happy for probably 3 years,and suffer the rest.why?
I once knew a schoolmate who later became a mat rempit. Right after school he worked odd-jobs just so he can fund his hobby which is to go for illegal racing, and modify his bike. (at least he's doing an honest job instead of snatching people's purses!)
While most of us decide to further our studies to tertiary education, he stayed behind and became an office errand-boy. That was the last I heard of him. I hope he's found a better,more stable job to support him and his fmily, because we have to be realistic here, it's hard enough for someone with a diploma to get a decent job,let alone someone who only has his spm to fall back on. (unless you become a celebrity..then u spm educated oso never mind!haha.pun inteded)
If you notice,most rempits are youths fresh out of school. They think the world is within their grip and motorbike racing is all that.well boy, things won't stay the same 10 years later down the road man. You decide that youve had enough of studying because school sucked and you just think that it'll hinder your passion for rempit-ing. Well boy, later on You'll want to get married, and only then you realize life is not a bunch of roses like you thought it was. You and your wife will want to have kids, and kids are definitely not cheap to raise.
You had all the chances in the world to make your life work, but chose a fool's dream that could only make you happy for probably 3 years,and suffer the rest.why?
Friday, August 05, 2011
A tribute to the greatest woman alive
Well, she is the greatest woman alive,to me that is :) she's my mum..
Ibu's birthday was today,and ayah wanted to take us someplace nice for buka puasa. I immediately suggested Ben's KLCC. The ambience is nice,and the food was affordable, for a KLCC standard that is :/
We ordered like there was no tomorrow, from main course, to side dishes, and then dessert:) i've always wanted my parents to try the to-die-for chocolate cake ,and today it seemed like the perfect ocassion for it.
But by the time dessert came,we were at the brim if bursting our stomachs and we couldn't stuff anything inside anymore,not even the awesome chocolate cake :(
It was a nice dinner to celebrate the woman who has been keeping the family together, and she deserved a fun night out and it was a great night filled with laughter and many forms of eating (particularly stuffing ourselves until we couldn't take it anymore)
Really wanted to upload some pictures but can't seem to do it from my iPad :/ must go godek some more.
I'll upload it as soon as I know how :p
Ibu's birthday was today,and ayah wanted to take us someplace nice for buka puasa. I immediately suggested Ben's KLCC. The ambience is nice,and the food was affordable, for a KLCC standard that is :/
We ordered like there was no tomorrow, from main course, to side dishes, and then dessert:) i've always wanted my parents to try the to-die-for chocolate cake ,and today it seemed like the perfect ocassion for it.
But by the time dessert came,we were at the brim if bursting our stomachs and we couldn't stuff anything inside anymore,not even the awesome chocolate cake :(
It was a nice dinner to celebrate the woman who has been keeping the family together, and she deserved a fun night out and it was a great night filled with laughter and many forms of eating (particularly stuffing ourselves until we couldn't take it anymore)
Really wanted to upload some pictures but can't seem to do it from my iPad :/ must go godek some more.
I'll upload it as soon as I know how :p
